Below are the 10 most recent journal entries recorded in Jinxed_MacStone's LiveJournal:

Sunday, October 26th, 2003
2:51 pm	Too old for this shit! Last night i went to a primus show with a friend. We had terrible seats up in the balcony, no one was standing. We were asked to sit down and we offered to trade seats since the people were behind us. They declined. So they yelled and cursed and eventually one of the even staff came and told us to sit down. Then intermission came. We decided to stand and dance behind the seats so people could sit (lame asses) and enjoy the show. My friend kept yelling and hollering. One of the guys in the back row told her to shut up but she kept on. Then he turned around and slapped her. I can't stand that shit, i'm by no means a tough guy but i couldn't stand by and let this guy slap a girl, so i punched him. His friend got up and punched me, then i returned the gesture and it turned into a fight which left me with a black eye and i think i've rebroke my pinky knuckle. I'm too old for this shit. I'm supposed to be responsible and i should of just alerted the security guys, but no, i'm a moron and that's the plane truth. The ride home sucked and so did this morning. I feel really low and rewind and erase last night. (13 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 23rd, 2003
2:14 pm	Sleep and masturbation #2 Yup it's been a while. I was lying in bed thinking about how i could be a fucking genius if i never had to leave my bed. It's true! I think of the greatest shit when i'm in bed but when i get up i forget everything. I have great jokes and insight into every thing, yes EVERYTHING. I think thats why i say such great thing to people who call me late at night or early in the morning. Cause i'm in my genius mode. Same thing with masturbation. I feel like fuckin Don Jon when i'm in bed and my dick is just the right size, i'm sexy and forget about the smooth talking, i'm like water sliding down a newly waxed car. Thats fuckin smooth. When i'm pulling the rope it dose'nt matter whats going on around me. My house could be on fire, the country could be getting invaded, a party could be going on upstairs, my roommates could be in the next room but i don't give a shit cause it's bliss. Now don't think i'm a complete perv cause i only do it once a day. I think thats normal. Anyway ending with a happy quote "sleep and masturbation, these are a few of my favorite things". (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 9th, 2003
3:19 am	Tonight i went out on a binge. I think i'm loaded. I have not drank in two weeks and i am now loaded. I think this word is great it encompases all that i am, loaded. Yup loaded with come, loaded with anger, loaded with ambition, oh wait thats not true! I went out with two really good looking girls and was interested in neither. This is a first time suckas. I've alwasy lived by the quote "i love the ladies". This time i did'nt love em. I didn't even have fun at pool or selecting songs from the juke box. I think this is the begining of a down word spiral. I will have to drive home in a few minutes and you can bet i will be sulking. I got an invitation from an old girlfriend to come visit, and she said she would buy the ticket. I think I don't want to ever be emotional or sexually involved agian. Maybe the seminary for me. On fuck that, I would have to give up pornogrophy! I need a pick me up and i thought alcohol was going to do it. I also thought for the last 2 1/2 weeks that alcohol was the devil. SO what does that say? I guess i don't know shit. DOES ANYONE KNOW THE SECRET TO A HAPPY LIFESTYLE OR ANYTHING FOR THAT MATTER? (15 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, October 3rd, 2003
10:17 pm	Friday? Today i went to the gym and talked to a few freinds on the phone. Bla bla bla. Some days i say "ya i just wanna stay in sometimes" what i really mean is"fuck i wish i had something cool to do" I read a book and listened to the new Dave Mathews CD. I guess dave is out now, meaning he's not cool, but i still think he's stuff. I went to the womens world cup last night. It was china VS canada and Germany VS Russia. What percentage of those girls are lesbians. I bet it's alot! It's no like i'm making a big deal or anything it's just what came up in my head last night. I was also sitting next to this girl who kept bouncing her legs cause she was cold and the lady on the other side of me told her to stop, very aggressively. I thought i was going to see a fight. It also pumped up my testostarone. The five minutes left in the game i stood up and some lady asked me to sit down. Of course i sain "NO". Every guy in the house stared at me but hey Fuck them cause it's a world cup soccer game, what a bunch of honky jack asses. I think i'm pissed about something and i don't know what it is. I just feel my blood boiling sometimes for not reason. Maybe i'm crackin up. (9 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, September 29th, 2003
11:43 am	sleeeep. Last night i laid in bed wondering again, about why i have to learn everything the hard way. I feel like i have not control over the choices i'm making. I wonder how life would be if you could control your emotions. I wonder why it is that you cant feel good with someone (like the first time you started to date them) all the time. I wonder why we avoid the good advice while saying it's good advice and then just do the opposit. i wonder why physical attraction is so important yet we say it's not everything its a good chunk of that everything. I wonder why Porno is such a big seller, are there that many lonely people? Incedently i went to a porn trade last night, it was pretty hairy. You gave you porn to the guy at the door he gave you a playing card. There were two DJ's and a huge projector screen on the back wall showing porn. There was a lady doing all the announcing and she gave a way random prizes threwout the night. at the end of the night you pick up a brown bag with a playig card that did'nt match yours and that was you new porn. AAhhhh good times! The weird thing is that there were a lot of couples and not that many lone rangers. Anyway it's grey in Portland and life is still a twinky. (12 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, September 27th, 2003
12:51 pm	Movies make me more depressed! So today i got to sleep in late. This is not unlike any other morning except its saturday i am usually at work untill 4pm. Today i'll do nothing. Yesturday i did nothing except went to the coffee shop and picked up one of those coffee smoothies. Yummy. I watched "Shallow Grave" again. I can't get Ewans voice out of my head, the part where he says "what then, what then" as he lying on his back with that butcher knife threw his shoulder. Anyway what if life doesn't turn out the way you wanted it too, what then, what then? (Comment on this)
Monday, September 22nd, 2003
11:27 am	My bed rules!!! I have to say that if it was not for food,sex,or hygiene needs, i would never leave my bed. I feel like a new me today or like maybe i wanna be a new me. I feel ambitious!!! This will probably wear off tomorrow but today it is the drive i needed to get out of bed. I also think i will get a new pair of glasses sometime this month. I have to think big, give myself time to do what i say i'm going to do. This is only because i am late and forget everything. Maybe i could be the proud carrier of ADHD or ADD. I went to a Portland arts fund raiser celebration the other night and danced till 4:30AM and then had to be at work at 6:30AM. Sunday at work with a bunch of kids that lie, yell, complain, and flirt all day.......SUCKS!!! I slept in and did not leave the house when i got home sunday. NOTE TO SELF: Think responsible, mature adult at all time, not just when it's convenient. Thats all for my journal today life is still not the best it could be and i am still left wanting. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, September 19th, 2003
3:20 pm	Aint no sunshine........ Portland is a kick ass city but the weather can take the stuffing out of ya. My ex-girlfriend has left back to Colorado and i now have to be with me all by myself. I feel sick lately, not flu or fever sick, just empty, cloudy, dumb and sleepy sick. I want to crawl into bed and stay there the rest of this day. I cannot do that however because, i love food and have to eat, and when i get really bored i need to "measure the tape". This is when the porn comes in handy. The problem with this is what i have on hand has now become boring. I could use my imagination but yuk, that would take too much work. On a good note someone called today and invited me out to dinner (they are paying) and this means i have to go out into the world and be semi social. Here is my question???????.......When do you have enough?? What i mean is when do you have enough love, things,and stuff to say your contempt with life, that your happy. I mean life is good for me right now but i'm not happy. Something is missing. (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, September 18th, 2003
12:15 pm	No Disco, No Bowling, Just SEX Last night i was supposed to go to a Rock and Bowl event with my ex-girlfriend, instead i got drunk, got lectured, and got laid. I feel like i am no longer the Jockey in life, nor the horse. NO, NO, I am now the tail in lifes silly race, and that's cool i guess. I also have to mention that i have not watched Porn for two and a half weeks. I think i'm going threw withdrawals. I'm going to need something extra special when my ex-girlfriend leaves. Any recommendations???????? (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 17th, 2003
1:10 pm	Tornado_macmabe I recently went to Colorado to visit friends and family and came back with my ex-girlfriend. She is ever changing and currently owns the new JLo perfume. She has only been here for one day and is already in possession of four new water bottles and one ne US magazine. My bathroom looks like a boys highschool lockerroom and she tells me she wants little gabbies. Yup she is great!!!!! (6 Comments |Comment on this)